Journal Entry: Tue Mar 23, 2010, 2:07 PM
Wow, August was my last entry... Sorry yall.
I promise I'm alive, everything is more or less going just fine.
I'm still teaching in Houston and having the absolute time of my life doing it every day, even if the kids are difficult--impossible even.
I've been butting heads with my AP about walkthroughs and the things that she has seen prior to her three month departure for maternity leave. She had told me that if I couldn't improve before she returned that I would not be here next year. She even went so far as to ask me if I loved my job, if I liked what I was doing every day, and if there was anything else I should be doing besides teaching. That one hurt. WAAAY below the belt.
I'm a first year teacher. I have six months of substitute teaching experience back in Katy, and now a FULL time teaching position with 6 periods of Art 1 with 200 students total... I am a first year teacher. FIRST YEAR TEACHER. I don't have the experience that other teachers have in this field when they get their start. I'm alternative certification and didn't go to school for three years for education--I went for art and design.
As I said, the job is hard, emotionally draining, and stressful. I've had four walkthroughs in the last month and all of them have said they have seen monumental improvement and that everything is looking good--some have even said not to worry about my AP when she returns and that I can relax and stop worrying.
I'm not going to stop worrying, as that worry has caused major improvement in my abilities... That being said it's doing little for my sleep or peace of mind. But truth is there isn't anything else I'd rather do. I've found my place, I've found what I want to do with the rest of my life--and the first year of that, as with anything else in life, means a lot of hard work. I have deviations to put up, but I probably wont for some time simply on account of my schedule and how busy I am whilst I remain in the academic year.
Just wanted to let you all know that I'm doing just fine in case anyone was wondering!
Listening to: Funeral For A Friend - Oblivion
Reading: Teaching Strategies
Watching: Top Gear
Eating: Pibb Extra
Drinking: Pibb Extra